My Sofia Grace

Tuesday, July 31, 2012

Sofia Grace Newborn

Newborn, due date May 15th 2011, was born May 17, 2011 First Doctor's visit Hospital, going home We brought Sofia home from the hospital to my parents house. She slept in a playpen with a bassinet that Donny's grandmother gave us. We didn't have much space and it was cramped. Donny went back to work right before she was born after being laid off for two years. Our hard times were finally over. I had to take care of a newborn and a three year old. I was breastfeeding which made it all more stressful. I had to run up and down the stairs foe every feed, every two to three hours if i wasn't breastfeeding. I pumped as much as I could but I didn't have much time because I had to entertain Olivia. I had to do most of everything on my own because Donny worked nights and slept through the day.

Monday, July 30, 2012

40 weeks and 14 months old

so a year has already passed, i've had sofia grace, she turned one, and now she's walking. her due date came and passed, my doctor was going on vacation so he scheduled an induction. my hubby and i didn't tell anyone the actual time when the induction were to take place. when olivia was born my sister called just about everyone in my family and we had unwanted visitors at all times of the night. when i had olivia on the same day, after being labor for hours we had a visitor arrive after 11pm. so we carefully planned out who was informed about the induction and who really didn't need to know. i made sure to tell her not to call anyone when she arrived that donny would call all the visitors we wanted to be at the hospital. olivia was staying at donny's moms because we knew we wouldn't have to worry and we could just focus on sofia. we arrived at the hospital tusday morning and i was given antibiotics for the first few hours. so i could just relax and not worry about any pain. there were alot of babies born that day and it seemed like every hour some women was screaming. donny and i would make jokes and just laugh. the nurse we had was very calm and laid back which made the whole birthing process more enjoyable after the epidural. after being on antibiotics for two hours my nurse starts the pitocin which started the labor fast and strong. before i knew it i was screaming for an epidural. there were so many women having babies that day i didn't get one right away. i was so scared that my moment would pass and i would have to give birth naturally. after about swearing and telling donny to that he needed to help me faster seemed like eternity, the anesthesiologist came waltzing in with his equipment. by that time the room was over heated and we all were very hot. as i was sreaming, the nurse and donny helped me sit up so the anesthesiologist could place the needle in my back and give me the medicine. i could hear donny laughing at me from screaming so loud and the anesthesiologist making jokes. so he pulls out the needle and put it in my back. donny starts mubling then the nurse asks him are you ok you look very white. he smacks his leg and started to fall to the floor. the nurse and the anesthesiologist catches donny and puts him in a chair. the anesthesiologist runs out of the room and yells, " WE HAVE A FATHER DOWN, WE HAVE A FATHER DOWN". i am still screaming bloddy murder because he ran to catch donny before he could put the medicine in my back. while donny is out of it, sitting in a chair right next to me, some nurses rush in and put a baby mask on his face. by the time donny came to reality he was piecing together why he passed out, he was very embarassed. when the medicine kicked in it was finally time to push. i pushed for maybe 30 to an hour and sofia grace was finally here. when the doctors placed her on my chest it felt like love for the first time and GOD was in the roon with us, my body was completely numb and i couldn't hear anyone talking for a moment and then she cried. her birth lasted only 5 hours after a long and painful pregnancy. a tear ran down my face and i was so happy. i waited for the nurses to clean her off, they rapped her in a blanket, put on her little hat and placed her in my arms. it was the happiest moment in my life other than my wedding and olivia being born. i had another little person in the world that was made with love, that was half of me and half of donny. she was so calm, she was exactly what i prayed for her. TOOK THESE PICTURES RIGHT BEFORE I WENT INTO THE HOSPITAL WAS TRYING TO LOOK LIKE A DANCER. :)

Thursday, May 5, 2011

Updating my posts/ 37 weeks pregnant and 38 too!!!

And the roller coaster begins again at 37 weeks. I got all of my test results back from the doctor. Thankfully I am not anemic anymore but I did test positive for Group Strep B. Which means I have to hall booty to the hospital when my water breaks so I can get antibiotics for the baby. I had my last ultrasound and Donny was there. He missed the first one because he caught the stomach flu and I was really pissed off about that. I was mad because Olivia got sick too but she recovered for the ultrasound. I was so happy that he was there and got to see his little girl too which wasn't another missed memory. So we were in the room and Olivia was with us and started to get a little hyper. It seemed as if Donny was missing bits a peices because his attention was toward Olivia. So I said a little prayer, "please God let Olivia fall asleep so Donny doesn't miss this ultrasound." And like 5 minutes later she says, "mommy tell Sofia that I went to sleep." I didn't see her face and the ultrasound tech says...oh look she took a nap. I was amazed that she fell asleep so fast because she never does that. She said Sofia is head down, healthy, very small, in the 29th percentile and she will be around 6 pounds like Olivia. And then she took a few 3D pictures which we were not expecting at all because of our insurance. Plus we had Olivia at the same hospital and didn't get one of her. BUT HERE SHE IS:












I think she looks like Olivia plus Donny and I.

38 weeks pregnant I had a false alarm this morning. I thought my water broke but I peed my pants which has never happened before. So I freaked out because my doctor told me as soon as your water breaks get to the hispital right away because of the infection. Affter all was well we took Olivia to her last dance class of the season before the recital which is next week as well as my due date. So tonight before I go to bed I have to finish Sofia's bows for a pink hat and for her little leggings. I will post pictures later.

And lastly, I had another appointmetnt today after the hospital. I am 1cm dialated and shes head down. If she doesn't come by the due date, the 15th of May, he will induce me on the 18th or 19th.

And those are all my updates... THE END!!!

36 weeks pregnant

36 Weeks Pregnant
This week I went to the doctors and had to get an exam for strep b. He said the baby was head down but still a little high. I have to take a blood test this week to see if I’m still anemic. And he ordered another ultrasound to see how big the baby will be. The ultrasound is scheduled for Monday and today is Wednesday. I called Monday to get in later in the week but they are always booked. I hope the person that does the ultrasound is different than the first one. The other lady was horrible and she didn’t say much. I’ve got my bags packed and the diaper bag packed because I’ve been having a lot of pressure. I’m always in pain and I’ve been having contractions lately. I’ve been cleaning like a mad women making sure that everything is cleaned and in order. Tonight after dinner Olivia and I opened the bottles and cleaned them as well as the pacifiers. I can’t wait to see what this little girl is going to look like. I hope she is a calm baby because the transition will run smoothly because my hubby is getting called back to work. We’ve had a very hard two years and everything is finally going to go back to normal. I got the phone call that I was waiting for, for Olivia to attend this awesome preschool. We have a meeting next week and if she is approved they tell us the same day. We have to go out to celebrate because we have had a horrible two years of a lot of downs. We’ve tried to keep things normal for her but when you have practically no money it’s hard to do things for her. Thank God we signed her up for dance class. I think that’s given her a piece of normality. She’s around other little girls and she can laugh, have fun, and be social. She got to take dance pictures which made her feel really special. She gets to do things that other little girls get to do. I once told her that she is very lucky to be able to go to dance class and that I was happy for her. I’ve sacrificed so much so she can have normal things. I think in the process I’ve let myself go a bit. Only because I didn’t have money to get my hair done, my nails done, and even get a pair of new glasses. But she continued to stay in dance and kept her little activity that made her feel special. I wouldn’t change my decision for anything. I found new ways to have new things. I remember a time in my life when I wouldn’t dare go to a thrift store to buy my clothes. But I’m not the only one in this situation. Many people are struggling because of the economy so you have to make smarter choices and learn how to save every penny. Everything that I bought was from the same places that I shopped at in the mall. One shopping trip I made in the suburbs I bought like seven named brand shirts for twenty dollars.
And it seems silly to create another child when we didn’t much money. But I knew we would be okay in the end. Having another child was a big fight for the hubby and I. My biggest reason for having another child was because that’s what we planned before we got married. Also I wasn’t having one child and leaving that child lonely. This is a big dream of mine for me and Olivia. I’m excited that another baby that my husband and I created is growing in my stomach. This little girl means the world to me as well as her sister. Their father is going back to work and everything is falling into its place. I love my family they mean everything to me. Even though my husband and I went through some really bad times in the past two years I stuck by him. For better or worse are the words we promised each other. Everyday wasn’t hell on earth and we have so many happy memories to create with each other. I’m looking forward to the birth of our second child. A big move into a better place to live for our family and the baby’s first Christmas. There are so many happy times we are going to share and I can’t wait for them all.

The shower came and went/ 33 weeks pregnant

Well the shower came and went. I’m glad the shower is over because it was a little stressful and I guess a lot of people were annoyed with me for having a second shower. I just wanted to celebrate the birth of my second baby with close friends and family. I’m very happy to have this little girl and I thought having a baby was a joyous occasion. But oh well, the reason why I had another shower was because my mother-in-law and sister-in-law gave it to me this time instead of my family. I’m happy I have these memories because it meant a lot to me that they would want to do something like that. I’m also happy that my aunt took pictures of the shower because no one else did it for me. I’m hurt because anytime anyone has a celebration I’ve always been the one to take pictures so each memory wasn’t missed out on being photographed. But never again will I do that for anyone. I will take pictures of my kids because no one has ever felt the need to return the gesture for me. That may sound bitchy but I don’t care. I just don’t want to be around fake people anymore. I just plan on staying away from people for a while and I’m not going be social right now.
The next day of the shower which is today was an eventful day. Olivia and I were sick all day with fevers so we had to make a trip to the ER to make sure Olivia and the baby were okay. We have been coughing and blowing our noses all day which really sucks for a three year old and a pregnant lady. Tomorrow I will be 33 weeks pregnant and I have never been in hospital this much ever in my life. I’m supposed to rest but there are so many things to get done. And we have so much to buy that we didn’t get from the shower. We need bottles, a diaper genie, breast pump accessories, pacifiers, a crib mattress, a car seat and stroller. And that’s just for her arrival so I’m a little stressed because we have six weeks left. Two of my favorite gifts from the shower was her little bathtub and bouncer that my cousins Debra and Nichole gave me. We did get lots of clothes and diapers. I kept all of Olivia’s burp cloths thank God because I think it’s gross when a baby pukes and a mother doesn’t have something other than a bib to clean it up. Olivia was always clean and didn’t smell like baby puke. I take pride in cleaning my baby and making sure her hair is neat. I just need to make sure I’m a cute mommy and not let myself go because I’ve

Thursday, March 24, 2011

31 and 32 weeks pregnant

i'm going to make this post very short because i have so much stuff to do tomorrow to prepare for my baby shower. i have so much to do tonight before i go to bed and i am tired. so i guess i will start with that. i am always tired and very hungry. if i could sleep all day i would. i am very nervous about getting to the hospital in time for my epidural. i've been shaving all of the time in case something happens and i don't have time to shave.
31 weeks pregnant donny and i were leaving the mall and i saw money on the ground. so he pulled around and got out of the car and picked up 20 dollars. i went to the doctors the and he said everything looks great but he wants me to gain weight at a slower pace. i am always so tired so i don't move around as often as i should. so i've been walking alot this week.

today i am 32 weeks pregnant going on 33 weeks on monday. today is thursday and tomorrow i am getting my hair done, FINALLY, for my baby shower that my mother-in-law is throwing me. i've been walking around looking like a hot mess because i refuse to relax my hair anymore. everytime i do my hair just falls out. so i'm getting it pressed and flat ironed tomorrow. saturday is the shower and i am very excited. after the shower i have to organize everything and wash everything for her arrival. she will be here before we know it. donny has a doctors appointment tomorrow and then i'm going to have a couple of hours to myself to hopefully change into something beautiful. i am planning on getting extensions too hopefully before i go in the hospital. i will post a picture if i have time. i had another weird dream but this time it was about me. i dreamnt that my teeth fell out on the left side of my mouth. okay this is long, i'm tired, i have to pee, i'm hungry, and i have some stuff to do before i go to bed.
so later!!!

Friday, March 11, 2011

29 and 30 weeks pregnant

last week i was 29 weeks pregnant. i went to the doctor's and had a normal check up. he told me that he wants to see me every two week now. today i am almost 31 weeks pregnant, so i have an appointmet on monday and today is friday. i've been very uncomfortable at night trying to sleep. she is very low and it makes me pee every 10 minutes it seems like. and it's hard to find a comfortable spot with this big belly. i had a dream about sofia last night. i dreamt that she had weird little green eyes.(her father has green eyes) i just hope she looks normal. olivia was a beautiful baby. sometimes biracial babies are a weird mixture of each parent. i really don't want her to have blond hair or red hair. i have this little prayer that i pray every night before i go to sleep. thats when i don't fall asleep too fast.
DEAR GOD, PLEASE BLESS BABY SOFIA
PLEASE LET HER BE HEALTHY FROM THE INSIDE TO THE OUTSIDE
PLEASE LET HER BE BEAUTIFUL FROM THE INDISE TO THE OUTSIDE
PLEASE DON'T LET HER HAVE RED HAIR
PLEASE DON'T LET HER HAVE CROSSED EYES
PLEASE DON'T LET HER HAVE SHORT ARMS
THANK YOU FOR THIS CHILD AND PLEASE LET HER BE SPRITUIAL AND KNOW WHO YOU ARE
and that's the end of my prayer. i pray about her eyes beccause we have a lot of cross eyes people in my family. and i pray about her arms because my hubby's arms look a bit short, not like a dorf but just a tad short. so i pray that she is normal. and i pray that she is a calm person because her sister is very hyper. :)
i guess the last thing that i will write about my 29 weeks is that i found some money in the mall and it made me feel that my bad days are going to be over. my hubby has been laid off of work for a long time now and i feel that has robbed me of my happiness. especially because it made me a bit bitter and unhappy and i didn't enjoy olivia as much as i should have from when she was 7 months until she wass around two. because i was always worring about money. so now i make sure to play with her more, show her that mommy is happy to be her mommy, and that she is special and i'm glad that she is my daughter. i think that i should have been a better mother those days and should have been happier. but i've changed alot and it's a goal everyday to show her that life is beautiful and to enjoy everyday to the fullest.

i am 30 weeks pregnant right now and i don't have too much to say about that. but i'm very excited that she will be here before we know it. i will be very busy with the upcoming months until she is born. olivia has her first dance recital coming up in may. and it's the same weekend that sofia is due so i am hoping that i don't miss anything. she has her first dance pictures coming up in april. we have easter to plan for, the baby shower, and all of her dress rehersals for her recital. so we will be pretty busy. and i have to registure her for preschool at the end of march. i hope there is a spot for her because they have spots for poorer people and since donny is laid off we won't have to pay for this really expensive great preschool. i will post an enrty when i find out she's been accepted... so wish me luck!!!