36 weeks pregnant

36 Weeks Pregnant
This week I went to the doctors and had to get an exam for strep b. He said the baby was head down but still a little high. I have to take a blood test this week to see if I’m still anemic. And he ordered another ultrasound to see how big the baby will be. The ultrasound is scheduled for Monday and today is Wednesday. I called Monday to get in later in the week but they are always booked. I hope the person that does the ultrasound is different than the first one. The other lady was horrible and she didn’t say much. I’ve got my bags packed and the diaper bag packed because I’ve been having a lot of pressure. I’m always in pain and I’ve been having contractions lately. I’ve been cleaning like a mad women making sure that everything is cleaned and in order. Tonight after dinner Olivia and I opened the bottles and cleaned them as well as the pacifiers. I can’t wait to see what this little girl is going to look like. I hope she is a calm baby because the transition will run smoothly because my hubby is getting called back to work. We’ve had a very hard two years and everything is finally going to go back to normal. I got the phone call that I was waiting for, for Olivia to attend this awesome preschool. We have a meeting next week and if she is approved they tell us the same day. We have to go out to celebrate because we have had a horrible two years of a lot of downs. We’ve tried to keep things normal for her but when you have practically no money it’s hard to do things for her. Thank God we signed her up for dance class. I think that’s given her a piece of normality. She’s around other little girls and she can laugh, have fun, and be social. She got to take dance pictures which made her feel really special. She gets to do things that other little girls get to do. I once told her that she is very lucky to be able to go to dance class and that I was happy for her. I’ve sacrificed so much so she can have normal things. I think in the process I’ve let myself go a bit. Only because I didn’t have money to get my hair done, my nails done, and even get a pair of new glasses. But she continued to stay in dance and kept her little activity that made her feel special. I wouldn’t change my decision for anything. I found new ways to have new things. I remember a time in my life when I wouldn’t dare go to a thrift store to buy my clothes. But I’m not the only one in this situation. Many people are struggling because of the economy so you have to make smarter choices and learn how to save every penny. Everything that I bought was from the same places that I shopped at in the mall. One shopping trip I made in the suburbs I bought like seven named brand shirts for twenty dollars.
And it seems silly to create another child when we didn’t much money. But I knew we would be okay in the end. Having another child was a big fight for the hubby and I. My biggest reason for having another child was because that’s what we planned before we got married. Also I wasn’t having one child and leaving that child lonely. This is a big dream of mine for me and Olivia. I’m excited that another baby that my husband and I created is growing in my stomach. This little girl means the world to me as well as her sister. Their father is going back to work and everything is falling into its place. I love my family they mean everything to me. Even though my husband and I went through some really bad times in the past two years I stuck by him. For better or worse are the words we promised each other. Everyday wasn’t hell on earth and we have so many happy memories to create with each other. I’m looking forward to the birth of our second child. A big move into a better place to live for our family and the baby’s first Christmas. There are so many happy times we are going to share and I can’t wait for them all.